My Mother’s White Hair

My mother’s white hair, beautiful and soft, lush, a white bush which sits upon the crown of her head, tells the tale of life!

Her white mane screams wisdom, years lived, acceptance, love, beauty, assurance, hope, self-love & life!

The white symbolises her aging years, the family traits but more so her life well lived. It shows just how she has accepted her aging crown of glory. It teaches me to love & slightly embrace the few I have – even though hard!! Still yet I will be covering mine, see am not where she is in her life, I still need to have acceptance, wisdom, a life well lived, then I will allow mine to be in peace.

As for hers, my mother, it’s a sign of respect, not forced but earned! It’s says here I am, love me or leave me.

I tease her about her white mane, but I love her all the same, she is my voice of reason, my future self. As I grow older I see my features in her, she is my best friend and my mother. I hold her I high esteem.

My mother’s white hair!!

Believing in Yourself- an update from job search

Yea me!! So an update to my post on job searching. I went on an interview recently and has now been offered the post. I posted earlier that I wanted to start off in HR as an Administrator and yep, you guessed it….I am now the new Group HR Administrator! I officially start on the 12th of September.

I must say that this position was brought to me because I prayed for it, not just prayed but believed also. Faith is important in anything, whether we are believers in God or not! If you do not believe in what you are doing or want to do it will not manifest.

There is a story sitting behind my appointment. Apart of this story is that I was applying for work but decided to have a look again at my CV, LinkedIn profile and application letters and realised that they didn’t have a chance. I, therefore, worked firstly on my LinkedIn profile and updated it making look attractive to recruiters and companies.

It worked! I was contacted on the website via the message box and we connected. Suffice to say I decided to use the CIPD website to help me learn some interview techniques via a free course that they offer. You see, I prayed yes, but I also prepared and worked towards that which I prayed for. I also made it about God, not myself. He is the director and the glory is HIS!

I will add a link down below for the CIPD website, there are so many ‘free’ courses available. It’s free if you do not need a certificate. A small fee of £32 onwards may apply if you need anything extra.

Death

I had planned to do a post of something light and positive, instead I am writing about death! How prepared are we for death? I am asking myself as I write this. My sister texted me to say a best friend of hers had passed away unexpectedly! It was a shock to me even and it left a feeling of doom lurking around my head space. I accept death when it is expected. When someone was ill or old but not someone who is hardworking, caring, ambitious and just really full of life!!! I will always remember the first time I met this young man. He drives as part of his daily grind,..meaning he operates as taxi driver. He saw me coming along and he said ” I know where you are going, come with me” I said, “I don’t think you do” and went with someone else that was a familar face. A few minutes after I reached my sister’s house here he comes. He said “I told you I know where you were going!” “You look just like your sister!”

I am deeply saddened by this and my heart goes out to his family, his wife and his friends. This is so unexpected, people are afraid to make phone calls. Sometimes we ask why? Why, why, why?? Rip dear soul. I pray you didn’t suffer before your final sleep!!!

Summer is Here

Recently the UK has been experiencing a heat wave and the most glorious sunshine you can think of. This is uncommon for us here especially for weeks on end. I love it! I did, however, sit in it for hours while at work. I work as a teaching intern and we had to be outside in direct sunlight for two days. This was without any sunscreen, only face cream with an SPF of 20. I have now suffered sun damage to my skin and have developed heat rash all over my face.

We have a thought that because we are of a darker skin type we cannot burn or have sun damage. It may take longer than someone with a fairer skin complexion but it can certainly happen. The rejuvenation process has now begun. I have been using cucumber slices and aloe vera gel to rub on my face so that I can perhaps recover my skin texture.

I, therefore, urge us all to be careful. The sun is welcomed and beautiful but also damaging and dangerous.

Happy Summer everyone! I do wish I was going to Jamaica for my Summer vacation- I miss the mangoes, the naseberries, the sweetsops, so many delicacies and tropical exotic fruits…YUM YUM!!!

Resilience and Determination? OR A Dreamer?

Is it wrong to think that you can have more than what has been dished out to you? Well, I believe so, if not why even try? Life will not always give you what you think you want but what you actually need. Then, you may be able to decide what you actually want is not what you actually have! I have been learning each day about determination mixed with positive thinking and having resilience. This is evidently so as each day draws closer and closer to the point of no return, but I am not where I need to be. I am not a sucker for fads and foolishness but a practical kind of woman who sees only survival in her eyes each day as she looks in the mirror.

How can I ever give up? This process is painful but necessary. Ok God lesson learned, now can we move on from here, please? Thank you!

Poetry

INSTINCTS

 

HAVE YOU EVER HAD THAT FEELING DEEP DOWN INSIDE?

THAT FEELING THAT CONSTANTLY RESIDE?

THE FEELING THAT NEVER LEAVES YOUR SIDE

BUT INSTEAD REMAINS UNTIL YOU LISTINE AND ABIDE

ABIDE BY THE FEELING THAT PERSISTS

THE SAME ONE THAT SI YOU  AND SITS UNTIL YOU JUST CANNOT RESIST, SO YOU USES IT TO CALMLY MAKE A DECISION THAT ALLOWS YOU TO LIVE

THAT’S CALL INTUITION OR SIX SENSE

THE ONE YOUR MOTHER TOLD YOU ABOUT, WHICH IS ALWAYS RIGHT

THAT SAME ONE WHEN SHE SAYS, FOLLOW YOUR INSTINCTS

LISTEN TO THAT FEELING DEEP DOWN, ESPECIALLY WHEN IT SAYS DON’T FOLLOW THE CROWD

JAMAICAN MOTHERS ARE DIFFERENT FROM THE REST, WELL I KNOW MINE IS ONE OF THE BEST!

SHE WOULD ALWAYS SAY USE YOUR COMMON SENSE!

WE ALL HAVE FIVE SENSES THAT \RE TAUGHT BUT THE SIXTH ONE IS LEARNT BY HEART

DONT LEAVE HOME WITHOUT IT!

Sleepless Nights

My nights have become a bother in more ways than one. I either not sleep, not sleep well or sleep really late. This has now caused the underlining of my eyes to be dark and full. I know there is a lot on my mind, however, I try not to concentrate on that which I have no control over. I have a personal book that I write all my dreams and schemes into and yes it does help. Mind you I have reached a new low. I have not slept at all last night (August 21). I went to bed early as I have been trying to do, I must have fallen asleep because I dreamt someone whispered in my ear ‘wake up’ and I did. The time was 02:14. I decided to use the time whilst being up to read some scriptures, troll on Indeed for a career building job- I manage to apply to only 1, I then went onto my school’s website and look up short courses and completed one. I also managed to do some deep thinking which I might add did not help me. In the end, I got out of bed, made a cup of tea, and wrote my blog.

I know that I am not the only one with sleep issues, however, I want to be one of those who sleeps at night. I have heard of the calming effects of lavender and will be investing in a small bottle, I have drunk sleepy time tea, chamomile and whatever else there is. I did the night-time yoga stretches, put away my devices from an earlier time so my brain becomes climatized and I have been reading at nights now which do help sometimes. I need to now see how I can ensure that my sleep is not disturbed especially since I am realising it is affecting my day – day life. Memory loss is a sign in itself of lack of rest, I intend to only have such issues when I am at a ripe old age of 90 or so. Today will be an interesting day for me. Let’s see if I manage to get much done. I will make it a conscious effort to be mindful of my mood and engage with people cautiously.  I have much to do because I go to work for the weekend, my hair needs doing, my theory and hazard perception practice needs to become more solid because my test is due soon and I need to prepare myself for a consultation. A packed day is an understatement!

A piece of me

Uniquely creative she thinks she is,

so she uses her mind to come up with this

her friends say she’s weird but truly she isn’t

she just loves to unwind with a difference.

Does she change who she is because of critics and comments?

No! instead, she remains vigilantly prepared for the outcome that matters

she has always been different from the others

a Godly gift she believes that transcends outward

because she has never been a coward

that she is me, yes me of course, who else could it be?

Stacy -Ann Thompson

 

 

Job Search

No one told us during studying that it may take months before a potential career changing job prospect might arrive, so you leave university filled with aspiration and great ideas to change the world and become this great individual. What you found instead is that although the internet is filled with jobs, because they are out there, it would take months before being accepted in one. Some people are fortunate enough to have a job waiting on them after they leave uni or might even be fortunate to get one during studying, but there are few who remain without theirs. So instead they go to a job that is at the moment just a job! However, what I have found is that while working at that job, make it the best time possible. Enjoy each shift, engage in customer relations, try to learn something new, stay focus, and never complain about being tired of ‘working here’. Let your attitude be one of inclusion, great work atmosphere and team building (at the end of the day they will have your back because of how you conducted yourself).

  • In the mean while focus on your CV building skills- I update mine all the time
  • Buy yourself a power suit- you may need it rather suddenly
  • Remain positive in the midst of it all
  • Get a great interview bag or satchel
  • Great shoes will be needed
  • Be prepared for phone calls from head hunters
  • Prepare your speech and practice in the mirror
  • Be prepared for a telephone interview- they always use this to determine if you are worth their time
  • Create a Linkedin profile
  • Use Pinterest- it is so helpful
  • Occupy your mind- do a free course, learn to drive, be socially active (it helps)
  • Peer yourself with like minded people- very important
  • Remain interested in your job search- it can be time-consuming
  • Exercise – find something to be active at
  • Watch less tv and read more
  • Listen to your favourite songs and just have some fun
  • Perhaps get yourself a coach

This list is not exhaustive of what to do while searching for a job, but it can be some of the things you can try while waiting for your dream job. I myself is at that place of wanting to use my degree to its advantage, however, it can be tough out there and breaking up the monotony of it all is crucial. Feelings of doubt and self-sabotage can creep in unnoticed and create a sense of disparency and a whirlpool of complacency. Flee from it and remain vigilant and positive! That the job will come!  It is my belief that the right job at the right time will become mine and will become yours.