What are your life desire?

At one point in my life I thought that teachig was my ‘calling.’ I loved it so much when I was living in my home land of Jamaica (that was my first career). I fought very hard to return to the profession in this country only to be discouraged by what takes place inside the classroom. What takes place within the institution itself with the plotics, the bullying etc. I would never want to be a part of such a thing even if I could make a difference in a young life sad to say it but I speak the truth!

What I do know is that I believe I am called to make a difference in other people’s lives. I was shown my next phase of life’s work. This involves working with women who are abused. This however, will not be just another degree, but a ministerial degree with a difference…haha no that’s the name.

Of course I have to wait on the guidance of the Holy Spirit, but I know when God is ready He will tell me when! I have never felt as if I wanted to work with women and girls muchless those who are abused! That has to be the work of the Spirit. I will wait and listen for instructions, in the meantime the foundation is being laid.

The career I am in now (HR) has its purpose and once that is fulfiled and God sees that I have learned what I need to learn He will send me where my heart should be. I know that I would like to make a difference in someone’s life.

This growing desire has now rested itself deep within, I know now that I need to do some research, such as looking at universities that are right for me or perhaps even see if there is a job for me in an organisation that deals with this but working in the capacity of an HR personnel first. Whichever way I get there I will know once I am there. I am drawn to encourage women by helping them see how magnificant a creature God made them to be and that no man or no one can stop that.

It hurts me when I see potential wasted in a female because of what she had gone through in life – their innocence stolen by some disgusting pervert, or because their guardian died while they were young they were neglected by family members instead of cared for, what ever the reason it should never have happened. I know that there are many organisations out there that are doing fantastic work where these women are concerned and I believe I need to be a part of it.

This fight has become personal, I won’t go into specifics but I have known too many young women who deserved more.

God help us all as we try to make a difference in this world.

Happy New Year – Growth is uncomfortable

Happy New Year everyone. I do hope this year will be the year it happens for you, please ensure that you do not allow yourself to stop you. Cast those self-doubt, unbelief, and personal issues away, do not allow them to walk on your mind or back. Also, remember to cast every care on the One you believe in, trust me it works.

So, today I was sent an email with an attachment that led me an article written in the Harvard Business Review by Peter Bregman. This article was so true, it spoke about becoming better at who you are or what you want to be, the process of getting there and remaining committed through all of it. He asked two questions: 1. Do you want to become better? 2. Are you willing to feel the discomfort of putting in more effort and trying new things that will feel weird and different and won’t work right away?

My answer is yes and I have been doing this for the last 3-4 months. My new job is out of my comfort zone, my knowledge zone, my tolerance zone, my everything zone!! However as in the article which spoke about making mistakes until you become better I too found myself making mistakes and wondering ‘what am I doing here?’ I realised I was also making strides, but would make more mistakes and started beating down on myself, do you do that too? Instead of commending myself for the good changes I was making I was focusing on the mistakes and then really beating up on these shoulders. I would get home and my face would be like a slapped ass – lol. I now know that I need to accept that I will make mistakes but I should work more at the mistakes and celebrate when I don’t make any.

Why should I celebrate? Because my job is complex, see I work in HR and everyday is different. Yes, there are processes that are the same everyday, however, each case is different, each employee has individual needs etc. Therefore, I should celebrate that as a new employee in this role I get some things right!

Bregman stated that ‘learning anything new is, by nature, uncomfortable. You will need to act in ways that are unfamiliar…..you are guaranteed to feel awkward, you will make mistakes…you will be embarrassed or even feel shame, especially if you are used to succeeding a lot.’ He is so right, after working in customer services for 4 years I could do my job with my eyes closed, however, it wasn’t challenging in the right way, I was demotivated because I would do the job of a manager and end up with a supervisor’s pay and I was tired for the wrong reason, plus I could’ve done with a salary increase!

Now, in this new career enhancing role, I am in an uncomfortable  position but I am working on my self, working on becoming better in my role and supporting my team the best I can, whilst working on the thing that needs upgrading РI figured it out whilst on a week long break from work haha (ironic).

All in all, remember to be yourself whilst working on becoming a better you!