For a while, I have known or realised that I am what I think about. If you think about negative things all the time or most of the time, then negativity will enter your life and take over. I was like that for a long period of time until I realised that I was my own enemy and my own cause for concern 1. emotionally, 2. mentally, 3. physically. I kept thinking a certain way and surely all those thoughts became actions and drew unto myself repercussions that I dare not discuss. I have however let those thoughts go and by doing so the reactions followed suit. Now I am careful where my thoughts go, how long they stay for and how many times they visit me. I have also realised that the way that we speak attracts things to us also. So instead of saying for e.g. ‘I don’t want to be late’, ‘I instead say I want to be early.’ Instead of saying ‘I hate this job and I want to leave’, ‘I am now saying ‘I would like to be employed in a job I love and enjoy.’ I am believing that this will attract to my life the post that I really need and hope for.
As I write this blog I am praying deeply and openly that within the next few weeks I will be the recipient of a teaching assistant post within a school where I can grow and contribute to the development of the minds of children or young people. Too many times I have had this thought and not carry out the action behind the thought. I can see myself interacting with these kids, impacting on them positively, becoming aware of the educational system in this country, and growing within it. Initially, I had said based on the media’s portrayal of the school system that I didn’t want to enter teaching. However, based on many prayers and meditation I believe the answer has been given and that it is to enter teaching. I will do this however by becoming a specialist. Those areas are short and instead of becoming a generalist I want to be special. Someone whose expertise will always be needed. I cannot wait to embark on this new phase and chapter of my life that. I can just picture myself having consultations with students who are in need of my service and helping realise and develop their potential. As September arrives I will embrace it with a renewed sense of passion and determination, I will ensure my thought processes are filled with enlightenment and joyfulness, no matter what or who may be around me. I have to be my source of fulfilment as I rely on God to be my source of everything else. As I lean on Him to make my light shine brighter towards men, He will allow me to be a change to not only myself but also to someone else.